Just over 2 weeks to go...

Well if read my last post I'm sure it wouldn't surprise you to read that I got fired from my job.  Praise the Lord.  I never thought I would say those words and it's not like me at all but I am so much better off.  That company was a total nightmare to work for and I am a happier, better person not being there anymore.  It's a lot to get into but with everything going on in my personal life, trying to deal with that whole situation would had been catastrophic.  The more and more time goes on, the more and more I realize that God really was looking out for me.  Things will for sure work out for the best.  For the past month, I have still been unbelievably busy planning the wedding, moving my stuff to Brians, combining households, getting my house on the market, job searching, etc, etc.  PLENTY to keep me busy.  I hardly turn on the TV at all.  It's kind of getting to the point where I'm starting to feel a little...I don't know.  Not empty...but just kind of blah about not working.  But trust me, it's a lot better feeling then I had about a month and a half ago.  Anyways....
everything with the wedding is coming along as best as it could be.  My husband to be is doing great.  Working very hard as always.  I know we are both a little (well maybe more then a little) anxious about the changes that are about to take place.  I just can't believe in just two and a half weeks I will have this whole new "life".  It's crazy...but at the same time I can't wait to see what awaits.  That sounds super cheesy I know.  :) 
I vow to write 2 more entries on here before the wedding.  Two weeks from Saturday.

Where did those few months go...

Well I know where they went.  If you read my past post, you will understand.  The past 2 months I have been working non stop, planning the luncheon (which was incredibly successful and I'm proud to say I did a great job), and just have not had a chance to sit down.  It's funny I just looked at my past post and what I predicted is exactly what has happened...in a way.  Through January/February I was working a TON.  I was completly stressed out and overwhelmed with the luncheon.  Plus, planning the wedding and thinking about moving.  I must say I think I handled it very well.  Now that I don't have the staffing issues and am done with my Panhellenic luncheon I have to say that things have not gone as great as I thought they would.  I'm having some major problems with my job unfortunatly.  It's hard to keep your head in the game for something that you really don't believe in.  I'm struggling to find what it is I want to do for the rest of my life.  It totally sucks I am so down in the dumps about my job right now.  I am doing my best to put it behind me though.  Some things are just totally beneath me and at the risk of sounding...I don't know...sometimes I think that God just doesn't want me to work there anymore.  It's not a healthy environment and not good for me.  I would hate to lose my job at this point because of the guilt factor.  But, at the same time...maybe it's for the best.  I just know at the end of the day a paycheck is very, very important...but self worth is a heck of a lot more important.  My job isn't giving me any self worth lately.  Honestly...it's humiliating to work where I work.
Ok, enough of that...Ok! About 2 and a half months to go.  I'm still so excited.  Next weekend we are headed to Arizona to visit my parents and then the madness begins after that.  Showers, bachelorette partiest, the whole nine yards.  I can't wait!  I still can't believe its all coming together.  Well...yes I can.  It feels like we have been engaged for awhile now.  I am just ready to be MARRIED!!
Good to get some stuff off my chest.  May 21...only like 72 days away!

So...I have been busy!

Pretty much what my title says...I have been super busy with stuff.  Mostly work stuff.  I'm glad I kind of psyched myself up for stuff because I know I have to me majorly on my toes over the next few months.  My job will be very demanding over the next month or two because of staffing issues.  I'm also planning a Panhellenic Alumni luncheon for around 200 people that will take place the end of February.  Oh and putting my house on the market as well as planning a wedding on top of that.  If that doesn't make you want to pull your hair out, I don't know what will.  But, I will get through it and you know what, come the end of February or more likely the beginning of March, when the luncheon is over and my job is not requiring massive amounts of time and brain power, I will be more the ready to take some time off and get ready for the wedding and...OK I will go ahead and say it...the happiest time of my life!  Sorry...I am honestly just getting so excited about everything.  I'm counting down the days till the wedding but I know that the wedding is only one day, well more like 3 days when you factor in rehearsal dinner, bridal luncheon, family dinner, day of wedding, actual wedding....anyways...I AM very excited for that weekend.  But, I'm more excited to start out married life.  I have a lot of friends that have gotten married in the past few years.  Most of them have lived together, some of them have not.  I see absolutely nothing wrong with living with your significant other before marriage, and I really mean that.  I think/know that if Brian and I weren't kind of already "settled" in our own lives, that maybe living together would have been an option.  But when we met, I had my place, he had his.  I know I'm rambling...bear with me.  I guess I hear a lot of people when asked "how's married life" their answer is "well really nothing different than before".  Nothing wrong with that....at all. But I guess part of me is just excited for that "big change".  I know some of it will be awkward and some of it will be really, really fun.  And when I say awkward I really think at first it's almost going to be like "playing house" but in a fun way.  Anyways, that was pretty much the all over the place posting ever.  That's kind of my mental state right now, understandably.  Maybe the next one will make more sense!